There are some things that I have done in my past that used to haunt me. I was continuously tormented by my wretched behavior. I was constantly embarrassed and continually afraid that people may find out about me and shun me. I needed their approval after all and what if they shunned me? I tried to satisfy my own tournament by becoming a people pleaser. I found that no matter how I tried I could not make everyone like me and want to hang out with me. I became more and more lonely on the inside. I tried to make up for this by looking awesome on the outside. I won athletic events; I dressed nice I bought a “show off “ car. Still the emptiness, despair and shame were so loud I was convinced everyone could see it? I was so lonely; I really didn’t have any true friends. I had grown up a Christian, and I prayed to God, but I did not “feel” relief. I sought comfort in food, alcohol and promiscuity. The Emptiness and despair became even louder.
Then in my madness I did something even worse then I had ever done before…it was way beyond me. I had to through in the towel. I couldn’t try to pretend I was OK. I was not. I needed help. I needed forgiveness. I cried out to Jesus. I came to Him with a sincerely repentant heart. He filled me with His Holy Spirit and gave me a new heart. I accepted the forgiveness He died to give me. I embraced that forgiveness so I could forgive myself.
I still do amazingly stupid things. I still sin. Now, when I do wrong I try to immediately repent and trust in the forgiveness we all have through Christ’s sacrifice. This continually relying on Jesus keeps me healthy. I know not everyone likes me, that’s OK. I’m good with God, He loves me and He loves you. This is really, all that matters. We all can truly love ourselves, by accepting His forgiveness. We can all be made truly well. Regardless of how horrible we have been.
John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten son, that whosoever believeth on Him shall not perish, but have life eternal.”
Romans 3:22-25 “22 This righteousness is given through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference between Jew and Gentile, 23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24 and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. 25 God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement, through the shedding of his blood—to be received by faith.”
Be fit and be blessed,